Hi my name is Alisha and I’m a blogger wanna be. I haven’t been able to stay away from the desire to start a blog ever since the days where I ran a little Wedding Tumblr page…. yes I’ve included the link so you can go laugh at me. You’re welcome… and I’m sorry!
Anyway, in the past few years, I have started at least two different blogs and given up on them. Life was too busy, I was uninspired… I didn’t really have a direction for blogging, and I didn’t feel like I had a voice. Probably the biggest reason though, if I’m being honest, is that I don’t like to do things other people do better than me… (GASP.) Yep, honesty moment. We’ll have many more of those here. But there you have it. This is also the reason I never truly attempted learning to play a musical instrument, and why there is an Etsy shop in existence that has had a name reserved for over a year, but has never actually opened. Truthfully, I even think it’s the reason I’ve given up on so many diets and lifestyle changes time and time again. This all may seem silly, but it’s the truth. I have struggled with the comparison game, big time.
There are countless bloggers that I have followed over the years, many of them my dear friends, who are so great at what they do! So, every time I set out to start my own, I eventually succumbed to that little voice in my head that always begs the question, “Why on earth would anyone care what you have to say?”. And in my mind, that question had a lot of facts to back it. I love to write, and am a self-proclaimed “word nerd” BUT I don’t have a college degree, and I KNOW my grammar and punctuation isn’t always on point. (To all you English majors out there, I am SO sorry!) I love fashion, BUT I don’t have a fashion blogger body… or the confidence for it… OR the budget. I have a picky eye for design, BUT absolutely no technical design knowledge and I am just a really horrible learner. Really. (No, really).
I’m a creative, BUT I’ve spent all these years putting my desire to create on the back burner, hiding behind a desk and a steady paycheck, so I have nothing to show for it.
I love sharing my heart and passion for marriage and worship ministry, BUT I’m still so new and inexperienced at both of those things. So basically, I’m unqualified, and I’m not going to be the BEST at this… but you know what, that’s okay.
I’m still really busy, I still have days when I am uninspired, but recently I’ve been feeling convicted for sitting here with these God-given dreams and desires in my heart, and choosing to not do anything about them.
So here’s what I can offer.
I can’t offer perfection, I can’t offer consistently scheduled posts, or a perfectly curated, “pretty” life. I can’t even offer advice on most subjects.
But I can point to Jesus with my words. I can use my own unique life experiences and my own story, and hope to inspire someone that may be reading. Maybe I’ll only make you laugh, and that’s great because I really love to make people laugh! Maybe only one person will read this. Maybe you’ll never return to this blog page again after reading this. And you know what? That’s ok.
But, just maybe, one day someone will stumble upon this blog, feeling broken down from the weight of the world, overwhelmed with the belief that they aren’t good enough, exhausted from the constant battle of comparison, and just maybe, they’ll see someone who has been there, and they’ll leave the webpage knowing that they aren’t alone. They’ll leave it knowing more about God’s grace, and they’ll leave it feeling more loved than ever before. Maybe it will even point them to Jesus.
So, why not try?
Plus I know y’all are sick of my extra long instagram posts, so here goes… 😉